Dearest Ollie,

Silly MaMa thought you are now 4 months till my friend pointed out that you would only be 4 months on the 5th of July.

And 4 weeks has gone by since I last wrote.

You still like change a lot. Just when I thought you’d nailed your routine – you will change. For an entire week you would sleep through the night and awaken only when we wake you up – what a dream baby! And suddenly you would think it is more fun to wake at 5.30 or 6am, and you would do this for a couple of days… and start waking up only when we wake you again.

You’re a screamer. This has been quite constant. You would scream and scream inconsolably when you are tired. You are the perfect example of a cranky baby. Just like your PaPa – no one gets to mess with your sleep. So what I do now is, I put you in your cot before you get tired. You would not fall asleep straight away, you would move your head right and left a couple of dozen times, you would giggle, you would suck on your fingers, you would coo, you would stamp your feet till the entire cot moves, you would fuss a bit, sometimes you would cry a bit for me to pick you up – but you will eventually fall asleep. But what I would have to do is to stand by your side while waiting for you to fall asleep, though you don’t look at me all the time, you would know when I am not there anymore and will cry out for me. Sometimes you are real good and will fall asleep in 10 minutes, and sometimes you would make me wait like a ding-dong for over 30 minutes. MaMa spends alot of time waiting for you to fall asleep… but it sure beats your screaming, because you are capable of screaming for 20 to 30 minutes before you finally calm down and fall asleep. And sometimes when you do it all right and fall asleep by yourself in 10 minutes, I will do a little victory dance for you. I am that proud of you. You also have a bed time chant when you are tired. Its not really a cry… but a howling like sound, woo-woo-woo… and you do this when you’re tired from crying, and just about to sleep.

About two weeks ago, you flipped over, from your tummy on to your back – twice in a row. So motivated you are to not be on your tummy! And then we couldn’t get you to flip over again for another 10 days – and then you flipped over three times. And now, you wouldn’t do it again. You would just rather bury our face in the floor and scream. You wouldn’t even bother lifting your head up – you look like you would rather suffocate first, though you probably know I will come to your rescue.

You like sucking your lips… and you do it so voraciously! And so loudly too! Because you have no teeth, you do it really really well. If ever they gave out medals for lip sucking, you would win the gold medal.

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You are also very good at reaching out and taking everything I give you… and straight in to your mouth it goes. You kiss everything given to you.

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You also love watching television.

How is it I have only known you for such a short time, and yet I feel like I have loved you all my life? Every time you smile at me or I am able to make you giggle, my heart goes out completely to you and I know I will do anything in my power to keep you safe and happy. I feel so proud of myself when I can make you giggle.

Baby girl – I love you so much.

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