I finally made it! I can now officially claim my baboo is a 100% breastfed baby! Has been for 32 days now!
Well, for now at least. Fingers crossed and crossed and crossed! I hear about this growth spurt that babies go through where they will suddenly need more milk and I am suppose to have enough for the baboo.
And I hear of women who can express 3 ounces of milk from ONE BREAST! And this is even before they start feeding….. and they still have enough to feed the baby after that. And I also hear of women who can produce 8 ounces of milk from ONE SINGLE BREAST!
I have enough for baboo now – but she’s still taking in about 4 maybe 5 ounces (my estimate – and I would never really know)… and I need both my boobs to satisfy her.
When she’s about 6 months – she will need 8 ounces. I am trying to prepare for that by ensuring I express milk even when she’s not drinking but I am not close to getting 8 ounces! Demand and supply theory.
Maybe, as I was told – old cows just don’t produce as much milk. Ahhhh, well….. I will definitely try to get there.
Some of the stupid remarks I have had to put up with? “Are you sure she’s sucking correctly?” – and this person knew baby had grown 500g’s. My eyes rolled out of my head and on to the floor before I was tempted to reply, “Nay – not really… babies have a tendency to grow sucking on fresh air these days.”
“The way you are holding her while feeding is too comfortable – so she is not eating properly.”
“Hey – she’s still awake, she must still be hungry.” In some countries – I think babies do stay awake to play if they are alive.
“Oh – she is fast asleep soundly, are you sure she has had enough to eat?” Like any baby would go to sleep so peacefully when hungry.
Sod off and leave me alone already! Unless one has breastfed exclusively before, for more than a year (or at least 6 months) I don’t think they are entitled to any opinion whatsoever on what I am doing and how I am breastfeeding.
I totally underestimated the patience and dedication involved. If my baby eats slowly – I could be feeding for over an hour. If the milk flow is slow, my baby could get impatient and start throwing a fit and the feeding will also take over an hour. If baby is going through a growth spurt and needing to eat more I will be feeding for up to 3 hours (sometimes more) with only short breaks in between.
If baby doesn’t finish all the milk – I will have to express the remaining. During a middle of the night feed, I will be feeding baby for an hour… and after putting her back to sleep, it’s part two for me while I express the balance before I can go back to sleep.
I will also have to express before going to sleep or risk being woken up when I am lying in a damp patch of milk.
Honestly – it is a full time job. Then again, it may just be harder for me… and somewhere out there, a alot women actually have an easier job with breastfeeding. Where it just comes naturally and easily to them.
Nevertheless, I have the utmost respect now for any woman who tells me she breastfeeds exclusively.
For anyone else who has not breastfed exclusively – leave me the eff alone and don’t tell me it is easy.
I think my biggest challenge – if you haven’t already figured it out from what I have written – is with people telling me what to do and how it should be done when they don’t really know how I am feeling (what with the hormones and all, and this being my first time) and especially when they don’t know what I am already going through.
Well, that and the fact that I never really know how much the baboo is eating. Being the control freak that I am… I would really really like to know how much she is actually consuming in 24 hours… And then I can ascertain whether the amount she is consuming is indeed the average amount that other babies her age and weight is consuming. I find comfort knowing this information.
Then again perhaps it’s just my hormones writing here; and one day looking back on this I would think to myself what an idiot I am for stressing myself out.
Eventually I would like my breasts back to myself and I will breastfeed for as long as I can.